17, Australia
this blog is for me
it reflects how I feel, and things I like
last self harm: 31st May 2012
last purge: 31st May 2012
bones
w0rk0uT t1m3
wait why the fuck am I sitting here fighting urges?
the only reason I fought them is gone
it’ll be so much easier to just give in
So I was thinking of this today, and I don’t know if anyone else realises/thinks this either, but..
Have you ever realised that you were absolutely nothing to someone? Before you met them, you were nothing special. You were just another name. Then you see each other. A name to a face. Slowly, you create memories. Then they are everything.
They are everything.
Until someone stops trying. Someone stops caring. They forget about you. They can’t even put a name to a face anymore. Your name? They don’t even think about you when they hear it. The memories you once had of each other, are nothing now. And once again, you are nothing to them. Nothing special. Day after day goes by, and they don’t think of you once. Someone mentions you? They won’t even remember you. But they are still special to you. You think about them every day. Everything is different because of them. Songs, places, words, colours, clothes. Everything has a meaning to it because of them.
But you are nothing to them. You haven’t changed their life at all.
watching The Inbetweeners while I workout harhar
yay rummmm
You’re all so great and I really hope that each and every one of your lives are getting better
I’m just going through something tough at the moment so I won’t be online much, but if any of you need any help I’d be glad to try, or even if you just need someone to listen
xx
Getting drunk before school
I know it’s bad, but I just can’t cope with things anymore
Plus no one would really care..
I really don’t know what to do with my life anymore
It’s like I’m stuck here
I’m so empty on the inside, it’s like I’m dead
Yet I’m still breathing
What do I do
Feeling the urge
To binge and purge
I might just give in
Cos I want to be thin
me: oh the phone's ringing
me: I should answer it
me: wait, it'll stop soon
me:
me:
: *phone stops ringing*
me: ah that's better
Ugh I was hoping to just add a new blog onto the same account, but it’s really difficult and I cbf using a different e-mail address so yeah
About to get out of bed..
Then someone knocks on the front door
Nup going back to sleep
